I’ve got it in my head these past few days that I should get a haircut, but I have no idea what I would do. I liked it when it was short like it was almost precisely a year ago. I also love having the long bangs that come down the side of my face. I miss how my hair would look after I waited for the El on the platform and after I walked to work during the summer. The wind shaped my hair very nicely and I just don’t have that anymore. I could emulate the look with hair stuff and a hairdryer, I’m sure, but that a) requires money and b) requires time that would make me feel like a girl. Neither of which is all that desirable. We’ll see what happens, if anything I need at least a trim and to bring the back up a little bit more than the rest. Though that might end up looking gay or extra-feminine. I don’t know. And it’s pretty much decided that I have to keep some sort of goatee going, because otherwise I look far too feminine in the face. I just have to figure out how long I want to keep the thing and then how to keep it that long. All I’ve always done is let it get stupid long and then shave it all off.
I constantly have dreams about my bottom front tooth being loose and falling out. Last night I had one about all of my bottom front teeth being loose. And to quite a degree, too. It was very unnerving. I finally had that wake-from-a-dream-into-another-dream situation too. I was running around some warehouse and felt my teeth loose. I woke up and was laying in bed, and tried playing with my teeth, they were still loose. I woke up again and all was fine. I don’t recall if this was the final time I woke up.
I talked with Jacki a few hours ago. I think my attitude change helped a lot. She said some things that hurt me, but only because she felt/is that way now because of the things I said a week ago that hurt her. I would rather her tell me the truth though. Neither of us knows what’s going to happen from here, but I feel a lot better right now. In the end I have learned a lot that is bound to serve me well and that’s what life is about.. growing.
Now to eat some food and play some Kirby.
We have the same approach to hair. O.o
Long is a good geek look on you! Totally keep the goatee, yeah.
I heard somewhere that all dreams related to teeth are anxiety-related (no duh). Whoever thinks that nightmares aren’t anxiety-related needs… to get their teeth loosened? Via impact. Dunno where I was going with that.
Your site looks really cool now. Like, wow.
> I could emulate the look with hair stuff and a hairdryer,
Or you could stick your head under the hot air hand dryer blower thing in the restroom. Do you guys have one of those? Or you could dismount that thing and suddenly have a hairdryer… maybe just redirect the airflow so it’s not towards the floor.
How the hell do you guys have time to play video games.
I guess it could be anxiety related? I have been pretty anxious lately..
I seriously wish I could take credit for making my site look like this, but this theme is someonne else’s damned fine work.
We do have a blower, but I’ve heard that hot air blowers are bad for one’s hair? I prefer to air dry it anyway.. it’s a lot easier (and healthier, I hear).
I don’t really have time to play video games..