The bed bug paranoia has gone down tenfold.
The idea still scares the pool outta me.
To write about
New job
ADHD
Subreddit, chat room
Girls on train
One girl who stood right next to me
Finishing up school
No longer at ots
New apartment
Roommate things
Coffee
Place across the street
Laundromat
Room set up
That table, etc
Not sure what else
New shoes
Desire for colorful socks
Comcast + wind = down
Screenshot Sunday (Tuesday) (Wednesday)
I haven't really been doing.. much of anything lately, but here's a screenshot of my Android home screen:
The beat widget there, the one that says
@258
is something I'm working on. It's a fork of the seemingly dead android-widget-beat widget. I'm working on adding customization options and doing what I can on the original author's todo list.
Win Wednesday
I woke up late Tuesday morning, snoozing my alarm for an hour like I always do. I had slightily planned for this, though, and set my alarm for six thirty. Normally I get up around noon and somehow still end up late for work at one thirty. This Tuesday, though, I had an interview at an IT shop downtown. Eric works there and had passed my resume along a while back. I felt like I was running late the entire morning, especially because I discovered my black striped tie was in worse condition than I had remembered. Thankfully I found the solid black tie Sarah had picked out for gramma's funeral last year. I think ol' stripey would have looked better with my purple shirt and khaki pants, but I still looked good.
I ended up making it about fifteen minutes early.
I feel like the interview went extremely well. I made the apparent mistake of accepting the interviewer's offer of coffee, for, you see, I had taken my medication upon waking up. Stimulant plus stimulant is.. well, exciting. In many senses of the word.
I say "apparent mistake" because I too late realized what I did, but it ended up for the best, I think. My mind was clearer than ever (which suggests my medication dosage may still be a bit low). For the first time ever in an interview, I had questions for the interviewers. I'm pretty sure that my questions for them took up as much time as their questions for me. I asked about processes, compared products and services, and felt.. confidant and comfortable.
It was a fantastic experience. The coffee really helped on top of the medication. For one of the first times ever, I was actually able to just blank my mind and listen. I didn't know this was even possible. On my current dosage / medication, I still think a lot when trying to listen to someone. Things are a lot better, my thoughts jump around a lot less, but clearly there is still room for improvement.
I was still late for work.
I'm sitting in class, still slightly unable to pay attention because of everything on my mind. It doesn't help, though, that I'm acing this class.
I move on Sunday. My roommate is named Sarah. Weird.
A couple weeks ago, I picked up some wine coolers and nail polish. A deep purple color. That was a really relaxing night. I like the way the purple looks, but I think I'm gonna remove it and try a green, pink, or perhaps a nice blue tonight.
I also picked up some brightly colored hair ties a while back. Color is fun.
Last Friday I had an interview with a recruiter who specializes in filling jobs for PHP/Python/Java. That interview went well.
Things have been going pretty alright. I still need to work on getting to work on time, but I'm doing a lot better about not calling in sick.
A while back, my boss had me develop a timeclock app. My own undoing.
The title of this post comes from a new weekly feature on /r/ADHD. Basically, the idea is to describe your successes for the past week. All too often do those with ADHD focus on their negatives and failures. Everyone does. The goal behind this "Win Wednesdays" event is to force one to think about one's accomplishments or successes, no matter how small. It's an attempt to help one see that they are not a complete failure. Even seeing the small things can help change one's mood and outlook.
Other.. mental.. issues — I don't like that phrasing — have a high comorbidity with ADHD. Things like depression, OCD I think, etc. Depression, for example, can often be caused by one's constant failures to live up to their capabilities in one or more aspects of life (school, work, romantic and social life) that are caused by their ADHD.
This post is just an expansion on some of the things I mentioned in my Win Wednesday comment over in the thread.
Posted from WordPress for Android
In My Own Words
You know how, when you go to the electronics store and they have dozens of TVs all playing the same feed? And how you can't change the volume or turn them off? Imagine if they were all on different channels; a different channel for each TV. That's what it's like, all the time.