The Road to Betterment:
- Dump baggage.
- Get my ass in gear for school.
- Work out.
Got the first one done. Am working on the third one. I've been keeping an almost regular schedule when it comes to doing push-ups. Did you know that the shower curtain bar in the South showers is surprisingly sturdy? Makes for a GREAT chin-up bar. And it's right there everytime I take a shower, which is every day. I already feel a lot better now that I've been doing this just a little bit.
Um, that second one, though? I'll get back to you after this week is over... I need to finish up three lab reports and study for three different exams. At least this week ends on Wendesday at 3:05PM, though! Yay for fall break! Yay for not having a reason to go home anymore! It'll be nice and laid back this weekend. I imagine Phil and I will finally get around to beating Mega Man 9 this weekend too.
Over the past two months or so I've acquired a fair amount of small t-shirts that fit a hell of a lot better than my old larges. Hell, some of my larges were actually extra-large, that I've had since junior high! WTF. These smalls fit a lot better. I really like how they look on me too. Paul Schizzy thought I lost weight when he saw me the other day, but it's really just because I'm wearing shirts that fit a hell of a lot better now.
The one-acts and improv that I saw on Friday were really well done. No offense to the one-act directors or actors, but improv is consistently better than whatever follows them. Especially the comedian Thursday night. She was complete balls.
The Deeper the Blues the More I See Black
Yesterday's post was written in the throes of frustration over my Chemistry lab.. which I now have three to do by next Tuesday. I also have a Chem exam on Tuesday, a Data Networks quiz on Thursday and possibly a Psych exam on Thursday? Tuesday. This will be fun... The situation is not totally hopeless, I just sometimes get in moods where I'm basically like "fuck it all." Thankfully they never last all that long.
This has been on my mind a lot lately too
Usually when people ask me how school is going I'm all "oh, not too bad, just gotta get things in order." This time when Mary (Mary from Chattman, not Brian's Mary or swads-Mary) asked me I was all
I'll be honest. School fucking sucks. I'm hating the academic part of it all. I am so behind. I love the people, I love dorm life, I love Chicago; but I can't arse myself to do anything in my classes to save my life.
It's true. I'm sitting at a 2.2GPA right now because I failed a class over the summer. I got an E and an A in my classes over the summer. Go figure, but the E weighed more than the A. Right now? I'm doing so poorly it's not even laughable. I could seriously lose my scholarships this semester (I need to stay above a 2.0 to keep them). And the worst part? I don't care. I haven't cared in a long time. At least since last spring semester. I really don't see the point of school. A lot of the stuff I want to do I could learn on my own, and I would be far more interested in learning it on my own. ALSO THERE IS NO FUCKING REASON WHY I SHOULD HAVE TO TAKE CHEMISTRY! It's fucking retarded. Here I am, majoring in Computer Information Systems and minoring in Information and Technology Management and I'm required to take Chemistry. Chem is also my heaviest class, too! Which means that this semester it is the most important class in regards to my GPA. Systems Programming is up there, too, but at least most of that is interesting (I just need to get myself motivated to do the labs).
The only scary part about losing my scholarships and having to leave IIT is leaving the city and my friends... I don't want to go back home. It is so boring there! That's it. I hate school.
Now I need to spend the next six hours working on a lab report that I've had a week to do. For chemistry. And I have no idea what the hell it's asking me to do either. I have no clue when any of my midterms are.. I have a quiz in Data Networks on Thursday and I have no idea what I need to know for it (even though I go to class!). I have skipped so many chem classes because she keeps giving quizzes every day and when I turned the first quiz in she pulled me aside and asked me why I left so many problems blank.. I don't want that again, so I just keep skipping because she seems to be giving quizzes every fucking day now. Hell, the only class I really have a chance of doing well in is Intro to Unix. And only because I already know 90% of the shit the prof is covering so far.
What I am doing:
Setting up compiz on the laptop.
What I should be doing:
Studying for chem exam at 10am.
Working on chem lab write up due at 6:25pm.
The Swing of Things
I can't seem to get back into it. I.. I know I should, I just don't want to do anything of import. Wanna wake up everyday and just watch X-Files or play Spore (though playing the space stage just makes me want to play Galactic Civilizations.. WHICH REFUSES TO RUN ON THE LAPTOP VIA WINE).
That said, classes aren't too bad. CS351 will be a bitch if I don't keep up. Chem will be a bitch no matter what. Intro to Unix/Shell Scripting is easy peasy, Industrial Psych should be no problem. If I keep up in Data Networks that should be fine too.
Things to do:
- Car!
- Study!
- Work out!
- ???
- I don't think there's any profit in here for me... :/
Good things though! Phil and Richard are on this floor, as is Corey, so we've been hanging out a lot more that we did last year (or so it seems), which is good. Had some good times hanging out with Corey and Hamza last night too. Been spending some time at Patricia's helping her with her computer (apparently I'm good at disabling printer-critical services). Made an acquaintance in chem. Kendra, a freshman girl. Cool gal (she's from Michigan (Williamston, near Lansing I guess), so of course she's cool), dunno if she's hitting on me or not :neutral: She called me one night to see if I wanted to do anything. Thing is, she woke me up from a nap and I have NO IDEA what I said to her before I fell asleep again. She didn't talk to me in class the next day. Talked to her briefly while Galina and I were eating lunch a few days later. She seemed a little stand offish? I dunno. I mean, I don't want to give her the wrong impression in case she is hitting on me (that is to say, I don't want her to think that I am receptive to her possible advances, seeing as how I'm taken and all), but at the same time I don't want to push away a possible friend.
I'll also be getting my job back on Tuesday, though it seems as if Erika is going to majorly crack down on no-shows and late-shows... Ugh. With my current schedule and I figure I can work about seventeen hours. That's not bad, though I could barely do the ten a week last year... And I should really focus more on classes, not work, so I may trim some hours here or there... I really need the money though. Haven't bought books yet. Haven't fixed my car yet. Jacki's visiting the weekend after next.
That's all I can think of at the moment.
Oh, setting up WordPress for Joy made me finally want to update my own copy of wordpress as well as install a new theme. Looks like I'll have to find an appropriate banner for the top, too (or just get rid of the text, whichever looks better...).