Linda and I had a talk tonight… About these past few days. Half of me wants to try again next semester, and I think she does too. Half of me wants to move on. I am unsure… I mean.. I no longer harbor nearly as much anger as I did. No matter what happens in the long run, this is a good thing. I just do not know what….
This is what the summer is for. Clear my mind. Focus on other things. Work, friends, fun (Cedar Point with a bunch of ya? Either IIT kids in the area (Toro, Phil, Kevin) or teh Michigan kids. Most likely Michigan kids. Kevin says the four of us are going to New York to do sock puppet shows from the window of a car, anyway, as that is illegal in New York :-P)), SLEEP. MY GOD THE SLEEP. AND THE VIDEO GAMES. I would like to get back into Final Fantasy XI, but I need to finish Twilight Princess and.. and there is a LAN Party scheduled for the second of June! Happy! First real LAN Party since… a year ago? Wow. This makes happy. Ryan and Raúl (!) will be there. Bob and Eric, Jesse. Everyone. Fragging makes happy. Tony likes fragging. Have not played a good twitch game in ages. I will be home. In Michigan. There was a point when I did not want to go home. When I dreaded the end of the school year and the temporary loss of my new home. If everything works out as it should, I will be back here in three and a half months, and everything will be cool again. But everything WILL be cool in less than a week. There will be Sterling Heights and Shelby Township and possibly a visit to Ford to see all the highschoolers and.. happiness… I can not wait.
I have a plan. My exam schedule was previously posted. I do not have to show up to the scheduled poetry exam because…. well, there is no exam. I just have to make sure all of my papers are turned in by Wednesday at nine in the morning. This is what I will do. I will pack up my car Sunday and Monday with various things. Books, clothes, speakers+subwoofer, video games, TV?. I will empty out my desk. Sort what I need/do not need. Trash what I do not need. Pack what I do. Get dinner at 4:30PM and go to Psych exam (or go to Psych exam and get dinner shortly after 7PM). Drive home. Unpack. Study for bio. Spend the night. Study for bio. Eat some real food for once. Study for bio. Relax. Drive back. Study for bio. Sleep. Study for bio. Go to Bio exam. Get everything else in order. Pack up car and go home Thursday. Well, going home Thursday depends on what may or may not be happening this weekend. Is there going to be a final-big-party-woohoo-destressing thing, or is it just going to be a “see y’all next semester?” kinda thing as we part ways for three and a half months? Either way, actually, I may end up leaving shortly after my bio exam anyway. Then I have the weekend before I really start have to working. Use the weekend to relax. See people.
Then I will work my ass off all summer. I will work and work and work. There are a lot of awesome movies coming out this summer, so it should be a pretty good summer to make some money.
I watched some of the D&D game tonight. I never did roll a character for this campaign, so I am unable to play. Maybe next semester. Alex came up with a really neat concept for this campaign. Basically, all the player characters are villains and are placed in a big city. There are factions and groups within the city the player can become part of and.. basically they are given free reign. It is much more roleplaying based than previous campaigns have been, which actually makes me sad that I never managed to make a character (I think my dice bag fell behind my desk, am not sure).
I… I really need to start this eight page research paper on Nazi Eugenics. Once I get started.. it really will not be that bad. Then I can do the five page poetry paper on something Sylvia Plath. Jason and I are studying Java either Saturday or Sunday. I will read my Psych book at some point this weekend. I will study Bio any other time AND while at home Monday night/Tuesday. I really should have started earlier. But.. what can ya do? Next semester. I WILL be on top of things. I HAVE to be.
Wait a minute. My bio exam is Thursday. I do not have to show up to my Poetry exam on Tuesday. I have nothing on Wednesday. I can stay through all of Tuesday AND most of Wednesday! Huzzah! That will be a VERY nice relaxing time. A short little taste of what is to come. I like. Relax and read bio book. Two days. I can do that.
I am in a good mood. I am really glad we talked. I really do not know where things will go from here… Less than a week left. Try again next semester? See where we are at next semester… But I am glad we talked. It is a good thing that we were able to explain ourselves to each other. Comprehension may not be fully there yet, but realization is. It is a start. A good start. And a start is better than nothing. I think you asked how we let things get so bad? Probably by not really paying attention and pretending everything was alright. Live and learn, I guess?
I just… feel good about everything right now. Especially about exams, for some reason. I should be feeling hopeless despair because of them. Especially Java and Bio. I have not been doing so great in Java lately. That is my major! I need to do well. And I should be worried about Bio because the final is seventy-five percent of my total grade. I got a C- on the second exam, so I am hoping for a C+ or a B- on the final. I may not actually get that… but as long as I pass I should be happy. Bio is not critical to my major. It is just a requirement. I need to focus on the math and comp sci classes. That is where it is at for me.
Wavemon (command line wireless network monitoring tool for Linux) is fun to watch.
There are a lot of things on my mind, but for the first time in a while I think I am capable of dealing with everything.
I am smiling.
Actually, I grinned the biggest grin just yesterday.
Apparently David saw Spideman 3 Thursday night. Before the midnight showings, but that is because he has an in. The awesome thing, however, was that he went with Alyssa’s sister. I hear they have been talking a lot lately, too. Much awesomes, dude.
I had a little Yoshi figuine that Jeff gave me last semester clasping the cord for my headphones. I just now noticed that only a single arm was left on the cord. His other arm was on my desk. Yoshi is no where to be found, however. Poor Yoshi is a lost amputee! Oh, there he is. Stupid messy desk.
What am I going to do with all these Bawls bottles? Roughly twenty-five are sitting on my desk. Do I take them home with me and return them at Farmer Jack’s for ten cents each, or do I just trash them all? I actually trashed two the other night in a fit of rage. It took an impressive amount to actually break the bottle! I threw one in the trash can in the trash room. Went in. Threw another and watched as it bounced off the rim, bounced off the cinderblock wall, and bounced twice on the tile floor before finally shattering. Blue glass everywhere. Very cool looking. Should have taken a picture.
Nazi Eugenics. Paper, go!