What’s wrong?
Something does not seem right...
Am I just being paranoid? Jason noted that Linda and I seemed "brittle" over the past few days. Everyone keeps getting hung up on the fact that I got upset over her waking me up by dumping water on me. (They sent Phil to check on me after dinner on Friday. He's a horrible actor.) No one ever cares that I am fucking pissed when Jason wakes me up by pouring water on me and physically drags me from bed onto my chair onto the floor. Or when Kevin shoots me with his airsoft gun. Those fuckers hurt.
What's the difference?
I'm trying to do things right, but I get this.. feeling that I'm not.
I had an odd dream last night, here's the contents of the "wtf dream?" file on my desktop:
3/31/07
josh had boobs
didn't spend time with linda (fell asleep / she came in, left; as usual -_-)
my room at dad's in third east?
c-cups, he adjusted them
wtf
There are birds chirping at 2 in the morning. huh
My stomach feels funny. (not related to anything else) i think i'm going to go puke now
study java / bio
ugh
This is mostly for my own reference, but some of you may find it interesting
I ordered all of my books (and a few extra things) off Amazon.com.
Here's the breakdown:
- HUM104
- Dialogues Concerning Natural Religions
David Hume
($9.95; $5.10 at IIT used) - Frankenstein
Mary Shelly
($4.95; $5.95 at IIT used; never did read this in 12th grade, yay for AP English) - Darwin (Norton Critical Editon)
Charles Darwin, Phillip Appleman
($12.35; $13.50 at IIT used) - Therese Raquin
Ãmile Zola
($9.13; $8.25 at IIT used)
- Dialogues Concerning Natural Religions
- BIOL115
- Human Biology
Sylvia S. Mader
($80.32; $90.50 at IIT used)
- Human Biology
- LIT328
- Favorite Works of William Blake
William Blake
($9; $11.25 at IIT used) - Short History of the Printed Word
Warren Chappell
($14.68; $18.70 at IIT used) - Another E.E. Cummings
E.E. Cummings
($5.49; $11.20 at IIT used) - Norton Anthology of Poetry
Margaret Ferguson
($48.50; $50 at IIT used) - Ariel: The Restored Editon
Sylvia Plath
($11.16; $10.45 at IIT used)
- Favorite Works of William Blake
Total: $205
I listed the IIT Bookstore's used prices for reference. A few of the books were a tad higher than the used prices on-campus. I neglected, however, to list the prices for new books. The store was asking $120.65 for the bio book. I think it's a win no matter what, really.
I also already had the Java book I need for CS116 and the Psych book I need for PSYCH221.
I also ordered:
- Brave New World
Aldous Huxley
($9.64) - Fahrenheit 451
Ray Bradbury
($6.99) - Lord of the Flies
William Golding
($9.99) - 1984
George Orwell
($7.95) - Crime and Punishment
Fyodor Dostoyevsky
($6.99) - V for Vendetta (the graphic novel)
Alan Moore
($13.59) - East of Eden
John Steinbeck
($15.90) - The Dollmaker
Harriette Arnow
($2.25) - Stargate (Ultimate Edition) (the original 1994 movie on DVD)
($4.91)
With these items, and shipping/handling, the total came to $309.20.
Ouch!
There goes all that money from work I was talking about.
Half of the order was to be shipped on Feb. 20th due to Brave New World being out of stock. I ended up cancelling that book so that the order would ship on the twenty-fifth of January instead and just reordered a cheaper version of the book that also has some extras (and is in-stock!).
The only book in that list that I have not yet read is 1984. All the others I read in Honors English 10, 11, or AP English. It's been a while though, so I figured it'd be good to read them again, seeing as how I enjoyed them quite a bit. V for Vendetta was just a little something I've been meaning to get. I love the movie and I wanna read the original story.
I also found out that my amazon.com login/password is valid on amazon.de, the german site.
- Der fernste Ort
Daniell Kehlmann
(€6,07/$7.87 ; €20,07/$26.04 with shipping/handling)
I saw a review of the book on everything2, and it looks pretty neat. Plus it's in german. It'll be a challenge to read, but it'll be a fun challenge. I need to keep up with my german anyway. And what's better than reading? The reason I love the english language so much and am pretty good with it is because I used to constantly read books that were rated for highschoolers and the like in elementary school. It's the same principle with german.
Speaking of everything2, today marks two years since I signed up as a noder. I have only written three things in those two years, so I decided I'd post the sonnet I made for AP English. I'm wondering what kind of reception it will garner. We'll see.
I should write more. I have an idea in the back of my head. It's been there since the summer, I think. I forget when I started it.
All of the books should be coming right around my birthday. It'll be like a gigantic birthday present followed by a bunch of smaller ones (that's the way the orders are broken up; there's like ten items in one order, and then one in each of the rest) and then finally one from Germany. I can't wait. There will be much literary goodness to come.
I dreamt I was a polynomial
And I was eating things.
That's what I get for staying up all night working on Precalc. Got through all of the derivative stuff though (which is where the polynomials came from), and even worked through chapter six in the precalc book. Meaning, I'm a whole chapter ahead of the class. Meaning. Holy shit. I was behind. But no longer. I rejoiced by napping in class today (what's new? but at least I didn't miss anything this time). As soon as I got back to my room, I conked out. Slept straight through Java. Felt soooo good.
I was half-asleep, half-awake. Well, now that I think about it, I was probably seven-eighths asleep, one-eighths awake. I remember seeing Jeremy's bed above me, and there was a polynomial floating there... Except.. It was me. I was the polynomial, above my own, human, body. And some how I was eating things, such as my consciousness. Damn derivatives!
Easily one of the weirder dreams I've had.
It’s funny..
Originally written... the day after the last LAN Party? Given the context, one or more of you might know what's.. behind this poem, I guess you could say... I figured there was no longer a reason to not post it..
I'm kind of proud of myself with this poem. I tried to have a basic structure that I followed: two words, nine words, three words, nine words. I think that I adhered to it pretty well throughout the poem. It was hard to follow in a few stanzas, trying to find just the right words to fit the structure and still get my meaning across. Any rhyming is unintentional, as are most other literary devices. It just so happen's that the first line of each stanza is "subject verb," except the last and the first. The first, if you make it "It is funny" follows the subject verb, but then breaks the two word rule, so we'll just excuse that line. The last stanza... I just couldn't think of a subject verb combo to end the whole thing. But I think it works great as it is.
Pronouns galore...
It's funny
how my mind keeps wandering back to that night
in the dark
while walking along the pavement, the grass, the dirt.I remember
not the path I walked alone, on my own,
but the short
time and distance walked with you by my side.I walked
alone, but you made effort to be by me;
you fell away,
but always tried to walk with, next to, me.You asked
what was wrong with me, why was I sad,
I said that
I was not sad and that everything was alright.I lied
when I said that everything was alright with me,
everything was not;
I pushed you away, and for that I'm sorry.But I
just cannot relate to you yet what I feel,
because you are
the reason I feel that pang in my heart.
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Five dreams to the gallon…
So I found out my car gets five miles to the gallon. Piece of shit.
I woke up this moring with fragments of dreams running through my head. One that I remember quite vividly is as follows: I was at work, walking into a theater to clean it. As I passed by one of the trash cans that was out, I got a whif of what smelled like puke. I took a few steps forward, and blew chunks all over the place. It was.. weird..
I remember that all too well, but I can't remember why I was pissed off when I woke up... I was seriously pissed, like I wanted to kill someone... I remember a bit about people... the more I think about it the clearer it becomes... specific people... a female and a male... I think I know them... I'm not sure... I wanted to kill one of them... the male... It was seriously the weirdest feeling.. waking up from a great sleep, only to be in such a bad mood...