Just seeing her online with
Just seeing her online with my second screenname and not seeing her online with my first screenname... it... I... it... argh! loss of words. Hate when that happens. Jees, i know this is supposed to be a journal, but I can't even type what I'm thinking most of the time! Why? I should try to be more open. Well lemme give it a try:
Seeing her online... seeing her... a rush of emotions, hate, jealousy, love; what does it all mean? I wanna tell her so badly, but I'm afraid that she'll reject me, hate me, spread false rumors, etc. And then she logs off. Another missed opourtunity. Enough of these so-called 'missed opourtunities' and I may not be able to do it, not tell her, or anybody for that matter. By anybody I mean the any girl that I may like in the near future, of course I'll be able to tell my friends, but if she is my friend? Now that would be much easier.
OW! My neck hurts! I'm in an uncomfortable postion while sitting at the computer because of these darned headphones! I can't even type correctly. They're too short. If I played my music through the other soundcard (which is hooked up to the speakers, better, and not stuck on the motherboard(the one that has the headphones is on the motherboard)) then my bro might get mad at me because he's watching Young Frankenstein (that's Fronkensteen! Those of you who've seen the movie would understand.) and playing GBA. Plus headphones make everything sound much much better.
Guess I got a little side-tracked because of physical pain. But I can live with it. Now back to the topic at hand so I can let out my feelings, and to make this more like a journal.
I wish she could just know how I feel about her! Even if she just visited this site... just read a few posts, found out my feelings. I wouldn't have to tell her, she'd find out indirectly. ::sigh:: Why does it have to be so hard? Why!?
Kristy...
Ack! Stupid cave monster thingy!
Ack! Stupid cave monster thingy! I gotta raise Red XIII's, Cloud's, and Aeris's levels. And they're almost level 30! Maybe I should raise Barret's, Tifa's, and Cait Sith's levels and try using them? But it's more or less the Materia I use and Red XIII and Aeris have the highest levels of everyone, except Cloud (I can't make him leave my party, or not fight, unlike Final Fantasy X). I'm gonna take a break, I've been playing this game for hours at a time. Plus I shouldn't expect to beat it in a day. My friend has been playing this game for over 2 years and I don't even think he's on the third disk!
OK, that said... man I miss school. Kristy mostly... Ya know? I think I'm gonna tell her one of these days. I hope I can build up enough courage. I know! I'll just kill a random monster and get 500gil and find a +15 Courage Amulet! lol been playing too much FF.
Uh... hm... anything else? Eh, guess not.
Hmm… decision, decisons. I dunno
Hmm... decision, decisons. I dunno whether to get a GeForce 2 Ti 64Mb for $100 or get a GeForce 3 64Mb for $170. And then there's always that tempting GeForce 4 Ti 64Mb for $200. Hm... I'm trying to get my bro a good graphics card for his system so he won't always use mine. I've got a 750Mhz AMD with a GeForce 2 MX 32Mb. He's got a 500Mhz with shitty onboard graphics. the GeForce 2 Ti is better than mine, the GeForce 3 will be much better, and the GeForce 4 Ti is just the best. Man this is a tough decision. Well I'm gonna go play some Final Fantasy then sleep on it.
oo… that wasn’t good. My
oo... that wasn't good. My lil bro was playing Final Fantasy VII when the screen flashed a blue screen with white text on it, it wasn't the bluescreen of death(BSOD) because the system rebooted right after that. It only showed it for a split second, the only word I caught was BIOS. I'm scared! Maybe there's a reason why FF7 doesn't normally support nVidia cards. Eh, oh well. Back to the game!
Who said you couldn’t play
Who said you couldn't play Final Fantasy VII PC with an nVidia card? I just found out how. It runs so much faster!
Tonight is Game 4 of the Stanely Cup Finals! And the Red Wings are gonna take the cup home! GO WINGS!
Hm? What else is there... Nothing really. Good bye!