So Ongo Bongo Bongo Bongo, I Don’t Wanna Leave the Congo
Oh, no no no no.
I REALLY need a new computer to play Fallout on (or at least David's over Winter Break :razz: ). I've already sunk forty hours into my new character, because I beat the game on my first character after like twenty-five hours... This time I'm going around and exploring the shit out of everything. It's really compelling to try to find everything in the game world, I'm not sure why. I could NOT get into Oblivion, and even though this is a direct sequal to Fallout 1 and 2, it is still a spiritual sequal to Oblivion.
Over the weekend I Facebook friend-requested that girl I see all over the place, except I haven't seen her in a few days. I believe the last time I saw her was when she was getting off the boat cruise bus with Galina and Katie as I was coming back from 7-11. I then saw on Facebook a picture of her, Galina, Katie, and Sahar, but she was untagged. Galina was able to tell me her name, though. This was like a week or so ago, I think. I figured that since Linda has 1,100 friends on Facebook (does that make her a slut? :razz: ), that she'd be friends with this 'Sarah' girl. Turns out she was. I sent her a message along with the friends request:
Because I see you all over the place and figured I should say hi.
I sent it and immediately thought I did the wrong thing by doing it through Facebook (and stupidly expressed my thoughts to Jeremy):
(05:26:32 AM) Me: i wonder if that's creepy at all
(05:36:04 AM) Jeremy: Creeper
(05:36:10 AM) Jeremy: :P
We've talked a bit via wall writings, though, and things seem to be pretty alright. I just don't know if there's things I could be saying to express.. interest in her? Not like interest interest, but rather that I'd like to get to know her more instead of just talking to her once or twice and then silently nodding at each other whenever we pass.
There are thirteen laptops in use in this class (not including the professor's). Only one of the laptop users is paying attention (not including me).
Hung out in Jeremy's room a bit last night, to "save" him. Ended up having some fun impersonating him on AIM to both Alyssa and Galina. Galina didn't take too kindly to it, but Alyssa seemed to just laugh it off. Mostly talked Fallout with Jeremy, Nathan, and Alex.
I got through test twelve of sixteen by Sunday afternoon. The mailer script was not working properly, however, and we now have a blanket extension until the script is working again. However, I think the best course of action decided upon by Richard, Joy, and me was to work on the next lab, the infamous malloc lab. The malloc lab gave Corey and Phil an immense amount of trouble last semester. They had three weeks to work on it and they still didn't get it working properly. I am not excited. I must start this one early, unlike the shell lab that I started roughly forty-eight hours before it was due (I must say, however, I am pretty pleased with how well it turned out given the amount of time I worked on it). The shell lab was pretty neat and almost.. dare I say it.. fun? The thought crossed my mind to actually make it a usable shell that I might be able to make my default shell. :shock: To make it anywhere near usable, however, would require me to make the shell search the system's paths (as I do not feel like typing in /bin/ls everytime I want to get a directory listing)... Which just means changing all execv() calls to execvp(). Oh, and to implement directory changing. I imagine doing so wouldn't be that hard? I'm pretty sure there's a system call for that.
If anyone's interested in checking it out, the C code is here. Check the comments to figure out which functions I had to write.
Jeremy just noticed the pink sticky notes I stuck on the top corners of his old Dell laptop. They were ears! I put them there sometime last night. Kid hasn't slept all night and I've been talking with him for the majorty of the night/morn (he uses the Dell for AIM and such). I am proud of myself. :grin:
My eyes aren't doing that weird halo thing they do after I've been up for too many hours. This is weird.
Um.. Not much else at the moment? I can't think, really. I've been up far too long.
I Thought I Was Above These?
I spent basically the entire night after dinner here in McCormick lounge "watching" Firefly, playing Kirby Air Ride, Super Smash Brothers Brawl, various Mega Mans, random nostalgia-inducing SNES games, and then watching Dexter's Laboratory and Whose Line is it Anyway thanks to Jeremy's external harddrive and my soft-modded Wii. Far, far too many asians decide that the morning is the best time to practice the piano. The morning when we're watching things or playing games or trying to listen to music to fill out a stupid quizmeme thing (it's in the cut... also on Facebook). Overall, not a very bad night at all. What we did maybe wasn't all that.. great I guess, but who I was with the entire time were pretty damn awesome. And that's what counts.
Ugh... Intro to Unix exam Monday night and a Data Networks exam on Devil's Night...
One of the random woot shirts I got is really freaking cute. It's this cute-ass robot sitting on this sloth or something's shoulders. It's a light-gray shirt. Pretty awesome. The other one is an awkward pale-yellow color with... you know this famous painting? Imagine it with squirrels and houses made out of giant acorns behind them. On a sickly pale-yellow color. It's... eh. Mostly it's the color that bothers me, not the graphic...
I am impressed with my laptop speakers. I am sitting here in McCormick lounge at six forty-five in the morn, blasting the music from the thing above and it doesn't sound all that bad. Granted, it could sound a hell of a lot better, but I'm never going to seriously listen to music through these speakers.
I think I might have messed up my foot a bit by walking on couches and tables (like I always do!) instead of around them. I kind of expected the cushion of the couch to be more firm than it was, I guess? and came down and my foot just went out from under me. SOMEHOW I was able to save myself from smashing my face right into the corner of the table due to the loss of balance. I bet I just sprained the thing or something and should therefore take it easy for a bit. It'll probably feel better in the morning. I am able to put all my weight on the thing for like ten seconds before it gets awfully uncomfortable. It's not swelling or anything, so I don't think anything's really wrong, per se.
There is this one girl that I see everywhere on campus. More so than creepy-I'm-going-to-stare-at-Tony-everytime-I-see-him-especially-after-he-gets-out-of-the-shower kid that lives just across the way in North hall! And that's a feat, since I see Sir Creeps-A-Lot all over the place. Something is wrong if I do not see this girl at least once a day. Average sightings per day is nearing the solid number of two. I might like smile at her, nod, say hi, etc., but everything about her is just very... I dunno. She looks kind of plain, I guess, but it's not really that turning me off. It's more the way she holds herself, how she walks slowly, her expressionless face... Is there a person in there? It could be a robot! Stalking me.. waiting for the right moment to DISINTEGRATE ME :shock: At least she doesn't creepily smile at me like creepy-kid, and then laugh a little bit to himself. WHAT THE FUCK DUDE, SERIOUSLY, YOU'RE SCARING ME.
Just seventeen minutes until sunrise! Too bad I'm not on the lake or anything, I'm sure that would look amazing. I need to do that sometime.. go watch the sunrise over Lake Michigan. This is my third year here, you'd think I would have done that already.
Sitting here in McCormick lounge at fuck-you in the morning has caused me to realize.. I have a laptop! I don't have to sit on my room all the time anymore! I mean, not that I had to before, but now I can still be connected.. anywhere! I should sit in lounges more often. Perhaps even MTCC once or twice.
As if that wasn’t enough..
I wonder how much I posted during my last serious bout of tonsillitis.. if it gets as bad again.. I don't think I'll be posting much at all (due to, you know, being dead and all again). My tonsils definitely started.. feeling funny earlier yesterday. Well, the mere fact that I could feel them when swallowing is a scary, scary problem. I am not going to class tonight.. Might as well see if I can get some extra sleep in tonight...
I had a dream somewhere between midnight-thirty and four in the afternoon.. It was pretty neat.. I was getting a late meal at some.. fast food place in a mall. The mall was closing yet I could still somehow get up to the second floor, so I took my food up there. There was a pool on the second floor, just right in the middle, so I swam for a bit and then decided to wander around on the third floor. The third floor, at least along the entire back wall, was someone's house. I ended up hiding in a room that looked and felt strangely like David's at my dad's house because the father figure was looking for whatever was causing all the noise I was making.. ..Just now I realized I've had this dream before. Well, not this one, but it did take place in this same mall-type place and I do recall being in that "house" on the third floor before. I'm pretty sure the pool was more elabroate last time with like water slides and stuff (as well as people because the mall was open last time). I also recall going up to the fifth floor where a bunch of clothing shops were. I think I was running from something last time? I can't remember too well. I don't remember when I last dreamed this place...
I wonder if there's some sort of emotional-physical tie-in to my tonsillitis? The first time I got it, the last week of this most recent Christmas break.. I don't think there was anything emotionally jarring. No.. I think I was pretty well off in that regard. The second time was almost a week or so after Nicole broke up with me. A bunch of us went to Noodles and Co. for dinner on the Wednesday during Spring Break. I started feeling slightly ill following that.. and the next week and a half / two weeks were me laying dead in my room. The third time was a brief little scare during the summer, shortly after I started working. I attribute that one to a new work environment and a nasty, nasty keyboard. And now here I am.. just two days after Jacki broke up with me and my tonsils are swelling a little... I haven't had any food or anything that would possibly do this.. Though maybe all that booze and the subsequent vomiting could probably be a cause... I just hope it doesn't get as bad again..
I e-mailed Erica at the reg. office to tell her that I will NOT be able to work this semester.. seeing as how I'm having a hard time making it to my classes to begin with.. adding a job into the mix is just a bad idea. I'll just have to stop.. buying things.
I.. sent Jacki a hugely long message on Facebook... Still waiting for a reply.. (I'm not holding out for one, honestly) Basically the reason I am so upset is that.. after I got to thinking about her reasons or breaking up with me.. they all point to her having lied to me. About.. well, a few different things. I detailed it all in the letter. I.. am not going to do what I did when Linda broke up with me and just let loose here on my site. That was immature of me.
Oh "Compare People" Facebook App.. I just got an email with the subject "Anthony, here are your hottest single friends."
* "Who is hotter"
1. Alyssa Grant (210 points, voted 261 times) Go figure
2. Lisa Stanley (135 points, voted 184 times)
3. Shana Hartel (100 points, voted 144 times) Worked with her.. pretty cool gal
4. Linda Goldstein (195 points, voted 639 times)
5. Jennifer Arlene Priehs (87 points, voted 135 times)
If my tonsils don't get any better this week, I'll make an appointment at the health center for the end of this week or the beginning of next week, whichever is available.
Her arguments were really just kind of flaky, especially given all that we had talked about leading up to and during our relationship. So either she gave me bullshit arguments.. which, no, she did give me bullshit arguments (really, you should've heard them). But that also means that most of what she said to me.. wasn't real, wasn't how she felt, wasn't what she believed in. I was sad Friday night / Saturday morning. I was angry Sunday after thinking more about it, and now I am just.. bleh.
I mean, really, what am I doing wrong? Should I stop the nice guy routine? Should I stop caring about the girl so much? I just want them to be happy! "Yeah.. I know.. that's why I'm talking to you about this.." ..because my wanting you to be happy means I am a pushover and will let you go without a fight...? I never have the words to argue or say what I want to say during any such situation. It's always afterwards that I find them.. and by then it's too late. ..Well, with Jacki I have a feeling it was too late a week ago. I remember having a really paranoid, bad feeling shortly before our one month... Jeremy talked me out of it, but it seems like.. it was well founded, yeah? I had another dread feeling when she got here, when she was hesitant to kiss me. Same feeling I had shortly before Nicole broke up with me..
Jeremy got me booze and someone to complain to. Linda got me someone to complain to and a hug. Nicole got me cookies and someone to complain to. Amber got me a hug. Corey and Phil got me Giordonno's pizza. Jason and Alyssa let me bitch and moan to them. I'm glad I've got friends to put up with my whining like this. Though.. I'd rather not have to rely on them for.. whining...
There was just a squirrel fight outside. Awesome.
I guess the reason I always end up falling so hard (and subsequently getting hurt so hard... everytime :neutral: ) is that I have a particular life philosophy that pertains to situations like these... I think I heard it from Celeste?
If you're not going to love with all your heart, why love?
I mean.. it makes sense, right? Or maybe I'm just stupid...
Anyway, it's dinner time. I think overall I'm actually handling this pretty well. I just hope my tonsils do too..