The Road to Betterment:
- Dump baggage.
- Get my ass in gear for school.
- Work out.
Got the first one done. Am working on the third one. I've been keeping an almost regular schedule when it comes to doing push-ups. Did you know that the shower curtain bar in the South showers is surprisingly sturdy? Makes for a GREAT chin-up bar. And it's right there everytime I take a shower, which is every day. I already feel a lot better now that I've been doing this just a little bit.
Um, that second one, though? I'll get back to you after this week is over... I need to finish up three lab reports and study for three different exams. At least this week ends on Wendesday at 3:05PM, though! Yay for fall break! Yay for not having a reason to go home anymore! It'll be nice and laid back this weekend. I imagine Phil and I will finally get around to beating Mega Man 9 this weekend too.
Over the past two months or so I've acquired a fair amount of small t-shirts that fit a hell of a lot better than my old larges. Hell, some of my larges were actually extra-large, that I've had since junior high! WTF. These smalls fit a lot better. I really like how they look on me too. Paul Schizzy thought I lost weight when he saw me the other day, but it's really just because I'm wearing shirts that fit a hell of a lot better now.
The one-acts and improv that I saw on Friday were really well done. No offense to the one-act directors or actors, but improv is consistently better than whatever follows them. Especially the comedian Thursday night. She was complete balls.
Changes
I've got it in my head these past few days that I should get a haircut, but I have no idea what I would do. I liked it when it was short like it was almost precisely a year ago. I also love having the long bangs that come down the side of my face. I miss how my hair would look after I waited for the El on the platform and after I walked to work during the summer. The wind shaped my hair very nicely and I just don't have that anymore. I could emulate the look with hair stuff and a hairdryer, I'm sure, but that a) requires money and b) requires time that would make me feel like a girl. Neither of which is all that desirable. We'll see what happens, if anything I need at least a trim and to bring the back up a little bit more than the rest. Though that might end up looking gay or extra-feminine. I don't know. And it's pretty much decided that I have to keep some sort of goatee going, because otherwise I look far too feminine in the face. I just have to figure out how long I want to keep the thing and then how to keep it that long. All I've always done is let it get stupid long and then shave it all off.
I constantly have dreams about my bottom front tooth being loose and falling out. Last night I had one about all of my bottom front teeth being loose. And to quite a degree, too. It was very unnerving. I finally had that wake-from-a-dream-into-another-dream situation too. I was running around some warehouse and felt my teeth loose. I woke up and was laying in bed, and tried playing with my teeth, they were still loose. I woke up again and all was fine. I don't recall if this was the final time I woke up.
I talked with Jacki a few hours ago. I think my attitude change helped a lot. She said some things that hurt me, but only because she felt/is that way now because of the things I said a week ago that hurt her. I would rather her tell me the truth though. Neither of us knows what's going to happen from here, but I feel a lot better right now. In the end I have learned a lot that is bound to serve me well and that's what life is about.. growing.
Now to eat some food and play some Kirby.