I think things are getting a lot better, all around. I’m somehow managing to keep my apartment AND put food in my belly! Granted, my main diet has consisted of peanut butter and sometimes jelly sandwiches, tuna salad sandwiches, and ramen (with ingredients, like peas and carrots and potatos and cheap sausages/hot dogs; so I’m still getting important stuffs and not wasting away on terrible food), but I figure a budget of $40-$50 a month for food for a poor college kid is NOT a bad deal.
Sold the Lumina. Somehow we got $1500 for it instead of like $200. That’s how I’m gonna survive the rest of the summer, and then excess money from student loans plus work study should help me out quite well each semester.
Why things are getting better, I think:
I apologize that this summer isn’t nearly as post-heavy as last summer. I believe there are reasons for that, though (mostly lack of generally interesting stuff to talk about that hasn’t been outlined above and lack of boredom at work. Boredom at home leads to me dicking around on the web. Boredom at work led to me writing because I couldn’t dick around on the web. Well, led to. Since I don’t have work this summer.). I think it’s also due to a lack of.. doing things. If I’m in a doing things mood I tend to think about updating the site more often.
Things with Sarah are going pretty damn well, I’d say. We had a couple of misunderstandings or little fight-type things near the beginning of the summer, but definitely nothing too serious. I’m more excited for her to come back than I am for the ferrets to come with her, than I am for everyone else to get back in the city, than I am for James to move out, than I am for.. a lot of things. I try not to let my mind think about.. much beyond the next couple of days, but sometimes it’s hard (nothing more than like.. a season or two… I’m having thoughts of us just cuddling up on the couch under a blanket drinking hot drinks and just hanging out in the winter, for example.. perhaps after ice skating or something (I can’t ice skate, by the way, Sarah.. It could make for hilarious times)). It’s a mental defense I’ve set up thanks to previous relationship failures. And, really, why think too much about the future? Obviously one has to have goals and stuff for school, work, general life things; but one does not live in the future, one lives in the present, they’re living NOW. I try to focus on what’s going on now and make the most of it. No point in worrying about the future or lamenting the past (as much as things tend to pop up and try to distract you, it’s just something one has to deal with).
It’s been really nice to get out of my apartment for hours at a time last week and this. I am going to be kind of sad when the kids leave and I really won’t have a need to leave my apartment…
Anyway, four fourty-eight is kind of a late time to finish up a post and go to bed.. My sleep schedule was good for like.. a total of two weeks this summer.. not even consecutive weeks at that…
I dunno, ever since the car sold I’ve just felt really good about things. That lifted a huge burdon from my mind and now I’m looking around realizing that I have quite a few good things going on. I am immensely happy I asked her out. It almost didn’t happen, but I forced myself to NOT think about it and just see what would happen. It was a twofold decision, really… On the one hand, it was kind of like an experiment.. in that whole “can I actually get a date with someone that I barely know? (as opposed to having been a friend for some time)” way, and on the other it was a necessary step forward, to move on. It seems like kind of a weird way to look at it, but that’s how I’ve rationalized it out in the time since. And I’ve had a lot of time to think about it (four months worth, to be almost exact :razz: ).
Gah, five oh-six. I really need to get to bed.
…I mean it.
Went over to SSV to drop off Wind Waker and hang out with Jeremy (which consisted of watching him play and perusing Youtube for Songsmith creations) around 2am, left around 4:30am and chatted with Sarah at the front desk until she got off around 6, then walked back to MSV with her. It was pretty neat. She’s apparently related to pirates, a nerd in the computer-sense, and pretty cool all around. Why did I not talk to her sooner?
I ended up falling asleep after daybreak and got up around 6:40pm or so. No matter, I had no classes today anyway.
I need to find time before the weekend, ideally, to get a haircut. I’m thinking of getting like two inches taken off? This will be the first time any sharp objects have been near my hair (that I know of) since June 2007. Hopefully it’ll look a lot more.. tame. It’s been really all over the place lately. I just hope it turns out well :/ I hate haircuts. I have never ever gotten a haircut that I thought looked even remotely decent.
I really don’t want to go to Project Management or Java tomorrow. Such dry classes.
I have to say that Fall Break was a lot better than I had hoped. My sleep schedule was pretty fucked up for most of it, but I’m on track now. Thursday night consisted of Corey, Phil, Joy, Katie, and me going to Clarke’s (delicious!) and generally having a good time. Um.. brain fart time… Pretty sure the rest of the weekend was just spent hanging out with Corey and Phil. I think we went out to lunch on Friday or Saturday? I watched Phil beat Dr. Wily on Saturday, so we were finally able to play Mario Kart again. I’m not sure if it’s because we’re all on the same floor (and Corey and I aren’t rooming again), but the three of us have been hanging out a lot and talking a lot more than we did last year. It’s really nice. We’re also a hell of a lot louder in Mario Kart lately. Jumping up and down and having a damn good time, generally. It’s really fun.
Casey made cheesecake over the weekend, I had a slice on Sunday. It was really good, almost too good. I couldn’t finish it, it was just too much :( Kind of like how those “death by chocolate” chocolate cakes are.
Overall, a very nice break. Now I really need to get that car fixed… Parking Services emailed me and was all “hey, there’s a car that belongs to you in this lot, what the fuck?”
And I need to get back into that “doing things” state of mind. Problem is, I don’t think I’ve ever been in that state of mind.
Phil and I got to the third stage of Wily’s castle last night, but if you save the game and turn it off you start right back at the first stage of the castle, so we had to leave it on over night. I got bored part way through the night and beat the third stage and got through the fourth, but kept dying on the final boss.. :neutral: I think it was the Oreos and half-gallon of milk that helped me get that far :razz:
I don’t know what I’m going to do with myself this break (conscience says: “Get your chem lab done early, get caught up in data networks, look at your systems lab,” but who listens to that anyway?). I played around a bit with python last night. Fairly simple stuff so far, just figuring out how loops and functions work in this crazy language. Up next is GUI stuff. The mpd side of things is damn easy, all the mpd commands are extremely straight forward (and are the exact same ones I’ve already played around with in perl, oddly), so once I get the GUI stuff down it should be pretty easy to implement a basic music controller.
..I think I’m going to fall asleep soon… I slept from about four after my systems exam to roughly ten or so yesterday… My sleep schedule is complete poop right now. It’s terrible.