I think things are getting a lot better, all around. I’m somehow managing to keep my apartment AND put food in my belly! Granted, my main diet has consisted of peanut butter and sometimes jelly sandwiches, tuna salad sandwiches, and ramen (with ingredients, like peas and carrots and potatos and cheap sausages/hot dogs; so I’m still getting important stuffs and not wasting away on terrible food), but I figure a budget of $40-$50 a month for food for a poor college kid is NOT a bad deal.
Sold the Lumina. Somehow we got $1500 for it instead of like $200. That’s how I’m gonna survive the rest of the summer, and then excess money from student loans plus work study should help me out quite well each semester.
Why things are getting better, I think:
I apologize that this summer isn’t nearly as post-heavy as last summer. I believe there are reasons for that, though (mostly lack of generally interesting stuff to talk about that hasn’t been outlined above and lack of boredom at work. Boredom at home leads to me dicking around on the web. Boredom at work led to me writing because I couldn’t dick around on the web. Well, led to. Since I don’t have work this summer.). I think it’s also due to a lack of.. doing things. If I’m in a doing things mood I tend to think about updating the site more often.
Things with Sarah are going pretty damn well, I’d say. We had a couple of misunderstandings or little fight-type things near the beginning of the summer, but definitely nothing too serious. I’m more excited for her to come back than I am for the ferrets to come with her, than I am for everyone else to get back in the city, than I am for James to move out, than I am for.. a lot of things. I try not to let my mind think about.. much beyond the next couple of days, but sometimes it’s hard (nothing more than like.. a season or two… I’m having thoughts of us just cuddling up on the couch under a blanket drinking hot drinks and just hanging out in the winter, for example.. perhaps after ice skating or something (I can’t ice skate, by the way, Sarah.. It could make for hilarious times)). It’s a mental defense I’ve set up thanks to previous relationship failures. And, really, why think too much about the future? Obviously one has to have goals and stuff for school, work, general life things; but one does not live in the future, one lives in the present, they’re living NOW. I try to focus on what’s going on now and make the most of it. No point in worrying about the future or lamenting the past (as much as things tend to pop up and try to distract you, it’s just something one has to deal with).
It’s been really nice to get out of my apartment for hours at a time last week and this. I am going to be kind of sad when the kids leave and I really won’t have a need to leave my apartment…
Anyway, four fourty-eight is kind of a late time to finish up a post and go to bed.. My sleep schedule was good for like.. a total of two weeks this summer.. not even consecutive weeks at that…
I dunno, ever since the car sold I’ve just felt really good about things. That lifted a huge burdon from my mind and now I’m looking around realizing that I have quite a few good things going on. I am immensely happy I asked her out. It almost didn’t happen, but I forced myself to NOT think about it and just see what would happen. It was a twofold decision, really… On the one hand, it was kind of like an experiment.. in that whole “can I actually get a date with someone that I barely know? (as opposed to having been a friend for some time)” way, and on the other it was a necessary step forward, to move on. It seems like kind of a weird way to look at it, but that’s how I’ve rationalized it out in the time since. And I’ve had a lot of time to think about it (four months worth, to be almost exact :razz: ).
Gah, five oh-six. I really need to get to bed.
…I mean it.
Eh.. it happens. This was just one of those semesters for me… Though I’ve think I’ve been saying that for every semester since I started here?
I need to keep myself busy over break, get myself in the habit of doing things. Hopefully DMing a campaign will help, I should also really REALLY start on a programming project of some sort this break. I know I said I’d do something like that over the summer, but I never… did. I just need to kick myself in the ass to get started and it should be fine. Depends what I wanna do: implement the shadow color changer in xfwm (this would definitely help my understanding of C and GTK+; nevermind the fact that contributing to an opensource project looks damn fine on a resume), or finally do that mpd music client I wanted to do (which would allow me to learn Python as well as require me to read up on the various licenses as I would most likely opensource the project (which would probably also look damn fine on a resume)). I’ll have to see if I can start a decent workout regimen over break too, I’ve a) been slacking lately and b) got nothing to really work myself extra hard unless I go to Keating (which I’ll try to do next semester?).
So I totally slept through my night class today. It’s the last class before the exam, since the class meets once a week. It’s UNIX/Shell Scripting, though, so it shouldn’t be all that bad, yeah? All of my classes are salvageable, with some work. And by salageable I mean I could get a C, possibly a B. I really need to stop this consistent 2.0GPA every semester. It’s really bringing my overall GPA down. I’ll start working on that next semester (hah).
I love having two computers. I get the increased productivity and screen space of having two monitors, but everything on the second monitor does not touch the first computer’s resources at all. Granted, this means I can’t drag windows between monitors (though the guy(s?) behind synergy are looking to do that. Would that even be possible??). It’s really nice to have my assignment up on the right screen and be typing my paper on the left. No need to alt+tab to look at the next bit, just glance to the right. Productivity soars. Or, at least, it does when I don’t have other distractions. Such as the D&D 3.5 Player’s Handbook and Dungeon Master’s Guide. Glancing through the DMG is giving me ideas for my campaign. Ideas I really shouldn’t be thinking about until next Thursday at 1PM. Glancing through the PHB is making me remember my old Bard and Druid.
My exam schedule is as such:
Monday:
10:30-12:30 ITM440 Data Networks
17:00-19:00 ITM302 Unix/Shell Scripting
Tuesday:
17:00-19:00 PSYC3?? Industrial and Organizational Psychology
Thursday:
10:30-12:30 CS351 Systems Programming
The two ITMs are done with right away, and they should be easy ones anyway. Then I study my butt off for the final AND cumulative exams for Psych (back to back), and then I study my ass off for Systems. This could work.. sort of.
I imagine AndrAIa will get very little use at home. The majority of the time I’ll have no where to put her, and when I do she’ll have to be horizontal so that I can lay the fan on top of her graphics card (the fan on the card itself has been dead since sometime during the summer of ’07), this takes up a lot of space… Though the LAN Party really wouldn’t be the same without her…
I’m getting some favorable responses to the D&D thing, but over on Facebook. Looks like about four or five people are interested right now and I think it’s pretty safe to include David and possibly Brian in that list. This could work pretty well I think.
I really need to stop sleeping funny, my arms are always sore when I wake up.
I’m working on my Data Networks paper right now.. it’s all right, just gotta generate wordcount. Thing needs to be four or five pages long, single spaced.
Then I’ve got both a dynamic memory allocator (oh god, why couldn’t this one be easy to figure out like the shell we had to write?) for Systems as well as a random password generator (easy peasy, just time consuming) for Unix to write by Wednesday night. On Thursday I’m presenting, with my group, our project. Fun stuff. I don’t look forward to any of it. I can’t wait for this semester to end, but at the same time I really enjoy it here and don’t quite want to go home… :/ Plus, how will I play Call of Duty 5 over break?! I’m borrowing Corey’s Wii copy, but he’s going to take that home with him :(
I’ve also got a ton of Data Networks homeworks to get done, but I should be able to whip those out in a couple of hours or so.
I swear I’m working on my paper…
Me: y u not attend lan :(
Paul: because lan is gonna be shit
Paul: unless we do some D&D campaigns
Paul: then ill og
Paul: go
Me: wait
Me: wat
Me: d&d
Me: since when do you d&d
Paul: i’ve always d&d….. in nwn, bg, iwd :(
Paul: planescape bawwwwwww
Me: that’s different :/
Me: if we d&d, it’ll be pencil and paper
Paul: yes i know durp
Me: but i’ve never DM’d before
Paul: I WANT TO BE ROLLIN 20S TONY
Me: i don’t have enough dice to spare =P
Me: i be the only one rollin’ twenties round here, nigga
Paul: lol
Paul: hahahha
Me: hm
Me: though i would be interested in getting a session or two going over break
Me: that would be really neat
Me: i’d just need to come up with a campaign or something
Me: would you actually play if i got something going?
Paul: no
Paul: im to lazy
Paul: maybe :(
Me: douche
Would anyone be interested in a D&D campaign this break? I’ll probably spend like the first week coming up with shit and then we’ll play once before Christmas or something? Depending on who all is playing and if this group intersects neatly with the LAN group we could play then too while everyone else is all “zomg-i’m-a-wow-faggot.” I would really be interested in this if anyone else is. It’ll be a 3.5 campaign for sure as I find that a lot easier to work with (at least from the player’s point of view, and if the players aren’t having fun, why bother? Plus battles go faster in 3.5.). I’ve got all the 3.5 books in PDF (and the 4.0 books if you REALLY want them), so that’s no problem, but I only have a single set of dice plus some extra d6′s. I could easily buy another set or two, though, as it’s always handy to have multiple sets. I was thinking maybe get in like three or four sessions this break? I have five weeks off, so I’m up for anything really.
Anyway, let me know, k?
Good food. Good times with Jeremy and Corey.
Leroy Jenkins vial of miracle water on The Word.
From August 4th, 2007, on Facebook or sugardeath (warning: 34MB on sd, facebook is just fine for most of you).